The world has created some damn great bullshitters.
Some people are meant to be your mistakes. You are meant to be a mistake to some people.
Have some damn good use of it as intended- please learn(!!!).
I take pride in my swimming skills.. though i have constant paranoia about sharks. Andaming beses na din akong muntik malunod. But i’m still alive diba?
Pakiramdam ko ngayon, para akong nasa gitna ng dagat. Na nung tiningnan ko habang nasa pampang ko, kaya kong languyin, kaya sinuong ko. Pero nakakapagod pala. Kailangan ko nang bumalik. Kaso nauubusan na ko ng hininga. Nag-kick in na yung panic. Baka mamatay ako dito.. Isisipa mo yung mga paa mo. Kakampay ka pa din. Floating para magpahinga. Pero mag-isa ka lang. Walang makakatulong sayo. Kaya kahit ubos na hininga.. tutuloy ka padin. Mejo pathetic yung feeling. Biglang nawala yung pride sa swimming skills mo. Para kang isdang napunta sa lupa pero kabaligtaran. Pero tuloy. Tuloy. Kahit parang hindi natatapos. Mas bibilisan mo pa. Kasi parang susuko ka na. Hanggang biglang abot mo na yung buhangin. Biglang.. Shit. Buhay ka padin. Inabot mo. Hihinga ka ng malalim.. titingin sa paligid. Alam ba nila napagdaanan ko? Sasabihin ko ba? Tapos lilingon ka sa malalim na parte ng dagat na parang nakilala mo sya. Grabe. Muntik ka na nyang malamon. Tama na muna.
Hanggang sa susunod, pag lumipas na yung takot.. andyan na naman yung confidence. Kaya mo na naman ata.
I posted last time about this show I was watching.. how it was doomed and all because one of the main characters was already a ghost. Imagine my silent shame as the story unfolded and I found out it wasn’t doomed after all, and that the character was living and they do end up together. I ate up my words then, a reminder how I do so a lot of times when I decide for what’s supposed to be the final time and then go back.. when I realize it wasn’t what I really wanted.
I read an article that changing your mind is not a sin.. it helps you grow, learn about yourself and what you would stand for in the end. Maybe because you’ve gotta have a final stand no matter, right? No matter how many times you change your mind, in the end you will end up with the one choice that suits you best. You just gotta raise your hopes to the universe that it’s the choice best fitted to everyone else involved too but isn’t everything?
Isn’t everything in it’s right place?
So I’m watching this TV series. A guy chases ghosts and fights them for a living. Meets a girl ghost who becomes his sidekick as he exorcise the evil spirits. Falls in love with her. Falls in love with a ghost.
What kind of ending would you expect from this storyline? Does she get back to life in the last episode? That’s ridiculous, though would only surprise me a little if it does happen.. after all, we’re all a sucker for nice stuff and happy endings. But at this point? It’s doomed man. It’s doomed. Why the heck am I still gobbling up the cheesy stares and kisses and pleads to “Never disappear from my sight ever again!”. Ugh.
Such masochists. People who creates and watches this stuff. Sorry. Pang-isang linggong ampalaya ata na-almusal ko.
So many things have happened.. things turn out well in the end and i still come out alive, yet i am scared of the future and am being chased by my past. I am scared of wrong decisions and twisted views that causes them. I am scared of ending up alone, and being around people who doesn’t love me enough to accept me no matter.. but none of these things matter. All should matter is what i am doing at the moment. Am i doing what I want? Will this make me happy? Am i not hurting anyone? That’s the only thing that should matter. Why am i still running around getting my way to that when it sounds so simple?
I’m sick and tired of wondering all the time.. do they love me? Do they truly care?
I love them. I’ve done my best to show them i do.. i will continue doing so while i still can. That’s enough. No more worrying about things i can’t control.